Never Here
Original Poem
Where is the now?
I stepped into the silence
It swallowed me whole
But it wasn't empty
There were pieces…
pieces of myself
Cracked memories floating by
The ground pulses beneath me
And i am not walking
There is no ground
There is no sky
How long have i been disappearing?
Inside my skin
it's not mine anymore
Inside my head
Something else speaks to me
I dissolve, piece by piece
Fingers curl into static
My arms follow
and they aren't missed
There's a hum beneath it all
It's been here the whole time
wiating for me to notice
I'm noticing now
Who decided that i should be who i am?
Was i ever me?
My thoughts are breaking apart
Falling like rain
Drip.
Drip.
Drip.
But there is no sound
The sun has no warmth
It is only light
and the light lies
The trick is i was never here
Never here
Never here
Lyrics
[Intro – Distorted whisper]
Where is the now?
Where is the now?
[Verse 1]
I stepped into the silence
and it swallowed me whole
Pieces of myself floating past
I can't tell what's real anymore
The ground is falling away
but I'm still standing here
How long have I been disappearing?
[Chorus]
Inside my skin – it's not mine anymore
Inside my head – something else breathes
I'm reaching for the switch
but the signal's gone
The signal's dead
[Verse 2]
My fingers dissolve first
curling into the static
Arms follow but I don't miss them
Don't miss anything
There's a hum beneath it all
It's been here the whole time
Waiting for me to notice
I'm noticing now
[Chorus]
Inside my skin – it's not mine anymore
Inside my head – something else breathes
I'm reaching for the switch
but the signal's gone
The signal's dead
[Bridge – Building intensity]
Who decided I should be this shape?
Was it ever even me?
The thoughts are breaking apart
Falling like rain
Drip. Drip. Drip.
But there's no sound
No sound at all
[Breakdown – Aggressive]
The sun is just light
The light is just lies
I'm just the trick
The trick is I was never here
Never here
Never here
Never …
[Final Chorus – Desperate]
Inside my skin – it's not mine anymore
Inside my head – something else breathes
I'm reaching for the switch
but the signal's gone
The signal's dead
[Outro – Fragmenting, distorted]
Where… where…
Not where
Not when
Just …
Not
[Hum sustains and distorts]